Friday, October 28, 2011

Headie & A Bug






Spring has a lot of activities going on.
Even the giant flies and mosquitoes are hunting out during the Spring.
Thanks to my boyfriend’s sister who is studying Art History at Melbourne University, I got a chance to join the oil painting class held by the University.
This was a good opportunity to pick up oil painting after 6 years, it’s like a wish has came true.
I have been dreaming to draw a painting of Headie, our dog for so long.

It is so funny to watch Headie try to catch a fly, 
he would jump up and down from bed to sofa, sofa to bed, and opens his mouth trying to trap the flies.
The painting was done in a day, but I needed a real fly to stick on the canvas.
While buying some prawns at the Coles after the oil painting class, a fly stopped in front of me at the seafood display glass fridge, I ran to the vegetables shelf, took a plastic bag and went back to the fly. I waited for the perfect chance and WOOP! I CAUGHT A FLY AT THE COLES SUPERMARKET!
Put the fly into my bag and went home happily…

The next day I saw a bigger fly at my kitchen window, well I was greedy and thought that a bigger fly would look better on my canvas.
So while I was trying to catch the fly in my kitchen, Headie the busybody ran around the whole kitchen.
Although Headie did not really assist me catching the fly but I still caught the fly!
Later in the evening, my boyfriend’s sister caught me another fly  as well, with her drinking glass,
so I had three plastic bags of flies!
And the next day we found out the flies were dead and there were unpleasant maggots growing in the plastic bags! Eww~~~
Oh maggot is the thing I hate the most in this world! Argh so all the three flies went into the bin…

Three days later on a very fine and hot Sunday evening when we just done picnicking and painting at the park, my clever boyfriend caught a red ladybug for me! What a present!
The dead ladybug has its legs close to the body, 
I had to pull the legs out one by one, like I was doing a surgery.
Now that the ladybug is on my canvas and it certainly looks better than a fly! 

Headie the name was taken from the word headache.
My boyfriend thought this little creature might bring some headaches, well he certainly did!
Don’t expect him to be a toy dog like Poddle or Shih Tzu, Headie is a Kelpie or the so called 'Australian Sheep Dog'.

Born workaholic, he has endless energy to run for the balls! Yes I mean any balls!
Tennis ball training in the morning and soccer ball in the evening. 
Oh he loves to play soccer ball so much until he was over exhausted, having an irregular rapid breath and couldn’t even stand still…walking almost unconsciously falling side way with each walk. It freaked us out!

When he sees a ball, Headie would run in circle like a sheep dog, circling us, what can I say ?
Nature instinct...

At night after dinner, he would cuddle in between of mama and papa, uses his feet to reach out mama and papa and asking us to pet him to sleep.

He is like a son to me, eat with me, sleep with me, play with me, run with me, listen to me and comfort me.
I just love the way he 'kisses' my lips whenever I talk loudly, laugh or cry. 
He makes me laugh (well actually I am the one making myself laugh each time I play with Headie).
Sometimes we made a fool of him, just like last Thursday, Headie was playing with his green tennis ball in the room, I cheated him that a green apple as his ball. This little creature took the green apple diligently and started to play the apple, and ended up eating the whole apple within 3 minutes. 

Whatever it is, there is no dog like our Headie!

Friday, October 14, 2011

Blew Away




23.09.11

And a sudden Tornado attacked Melbourne
To blow him back to London
He wasn't ready for this
Hold still to the light pole and shouted
"I don't want to leave!"

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

No Entry




11.10.11

No entry.
No sex for me dear.
This is my blog, I write whatever I want.
But I have to warn everyone that this is a 18+ blog.


Suffering from Erotophobia:
It is the fear of sexual love or sexual questions. 
Erotophobes are less likely to talk about sex, have more negative reactions to sexually explicit material, and have sex less frequently.
The main cause for such a fear is created by the unconscious mind as a protective mechanism.
It may be the result of your past history. 
There may be an event linking sexual love or sexual questions and emotional trauma. 
At the same time, the original activator may have been a real-life scare of some kind, the condition can also be triggered by benign events like movies, TV, or perhaps seeing someone else experience trauma.

Pornography is something disgusting for me.
I am afraid of blood and I even afraid to look at my own virgina.
I am not proud to be a virgin or ashamed that I am still a virgin, I am more worry about my ability of having children in the future.
How to open up my protective mechanism mind? What is wrong with me?
Was it because of some my childhood traumas? Well there were a few...
Or was it because of my ex boyfriend dumped me over elder women and blamed me for not providing sex?
I hate sex so much when I knew he cheated on me.
I once wished every human does not have sex urge. 


Always wander in the middle of sleepless nights, I asked myself how long can this No Entry condition lasts between me and my current boyfriend?
When would I be ready?
Although my boyfriend is understanding and he doesn't mind but I think that I am abnormal.
Some close male friends told me that Erotophobia is something quite common in female, and I don't have to be ashamed of.


One of my girlfriend even suggested me to watch Sex and The City [plus some wine and I ended up obsessed with the drama.
My boyfriend is a workaholic and he is very busy with his new job, so we have to set the schedule for our intimate time. 
It sounds funny but it really works, because I am no more having to hope everyday and get disappointed all the time.
So we would watch Sex and The City before our intimate, hoping that there would be some hot sex scenes.
Well, not really every episode helps -- There was one episode about Carrie having a fight with Adrian and Miranda's mom passed away. 
That even worsen my mood and we had a little fight on the bed, so the intimate was blew off...


Well, don't rush, the time will come. 
Maybe I need to see a psychologist one day...