The Nude Project

polaroid brown film

Time to BREAK THROUGH!

On my desk there's a book of <<Desk-Top Mood Maker>>, it says: 

Take a risk! Do something different!

I am been eagerly crying for a break through and then my 27th birthday came... 

What have I done for the past 27 years??? 

The flame inside my heart keep burning and burning everytime when I attend church service, 

I am just desperate so so so desperate for a break through! 

So after my birthday, I told my boyfriend my plan of  nude photography and he shall be the photographer. He is extremely supportive to any of my projects which I can't find that in anyone else. Before the first nude photo shooting session in our house, he murmured:

" Am I ready to let the world see my partner's naked photo?" 

Come on babe, it's just a nude photo! 

We were worrying how my family and friends or those who know me would react to my nude photos. But the reason I want to do this project is to break through myself, 

and everyone else's mindset - this is not a PORNOGRAPHY. 

Growing up in an Asian background, we often get "excited" and over react towards nudity.

On the contrary, nudity is a very common subject in western culture. 

Why can't I do this? 

I am just a normal person who live a normal life
if I care what my friends and family would think of me,.

I am so gonna do this and I don't care what others would comment about my big butt 

and fat cellulite legs, this is me! The real me! 

There is nothing else to be afraid of in this world after doing this project, 

because I need to break through for myself, and not anyone else.

My boyfriend gave me a very good encouragement on my nude project :

And when the eyes of them both were opened, and they knew that they were naked; 

and they sewed fig leaves together, 

made themselves aprons. 

Genesis 3:7

That's the idea. Before Adam and Eve ate the fruit from the tree of knowledge, 

they had no shame for their naked body. 

Sometimes, are our eyes opened too wide to see and accept everything 

that is interpreted by the media? 

Why are we so ashamed of our own body and comparing every part of ourselves with others? 

Why do some people over reacted towards nudity? 

Why do some people interpret nude as the most unacceptable thing in the world?   

After all, nude photography is not as easy as it seems. 

How to show the aesthetic value in my poses when I am not wearing anything? 

How to capture the best angle to bring out my message in each photo?

I am just hoping we can get back to basic - 

on how we see things in the world with no stereotype or judgement.

This winter in Polaroid

Eric generously presented me his last pack of old Polaroid 600 film for my birthday.

Winter seems to be forever and I can't wait until Spring to use the Polaroid film! 

So I put this winter into warm Polaroid frames.

1) Pale pink roses outside my window

2) Dry branches in front of my apartment

3) Sun set in the bush

4) An old church near my house

Sleeping Beauty

And so Sleeping Beauty slept though out the whole Winter

The birds of Spring kissed her awake

She woke up but lost in the wood

Something changed something remained

Welcome to a whole new world with Aladdin

12.09.11

Haven't update my blog for a month,

the winter was too cold,

too many events and parties went on...

Sometimes I felt depressed too because the bad weather in Melbourne didn't allow me to do outdoor shooting, it's too cold outside!

Now the Spring is here! 

Oh Hello There to those little yellow, blue, pink, purple, white flowers by the roadside.

And Hello too to my neighbor's Cheery Blossom!

Some neighbor changed, some neighbors remained friendly and some remained cool.

It's been a year since I stay in Melbourne, I just love Melbourne!

Well maybe my English has improved, at least I am not afraid to talk with strangers anymore,

And I took part in volunteer work in a Art Festival organised by Melbourne University.
It was indeed a big step forward in my socialize skill -- TALK or DIE! 

My heart felt so so content after the volunteer work! It's the same feeling everytime I went to church.

Something good you did for people and you feel so good about it!

We also went to watch the LOVE NEVER DIES theater, it was just awesome awesome theater!

I couldn't stop listening to the CD everyday, the casts and songs were to great!

Oh we went to watched Australian Football League last Saturday night.

Footy is a big thing for Aussie. But the team that we supported, St Kilda lost to Swans, a Sydney team.

How sad....

Satan ruled me on one Sunday as I was too lazy to attend church service, I didn't know what's the reason,

I just don't feel like attending service.

So my boyfriend dragged my to church in that cold Sunday night.

Once I pass by a church's crew, he said to me:" Welcome to church."

Yes my tears dropped just after he said that to me. 

I never socialize in church, I go to church just to attend service.

But on that particular Sunday night where Satan ruled me, God sent me his words via the church crew,

just because I made it to the church.

Isn't He just too great? He is just too great He will forgive you no matter what sin you are having, He just wants to show His Love towards you!

So I ended up crying through out the whole worship session.

I will never betray You. 

I am so happy now, so happy in every second of my life!