A Year of Adventure

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2013 has been a great year for me. There were a lot of ups and downs, but I also witnessed how God walked with me and built my faith whenever I was facing trials in many kinds. 

This year, I prayed a Sun Stand Still prayer, and I know that adventures are waiting ahead of me. I don't know what God will take away from me so that I will not be too comfortable in my life in order to achieve my audacious vision. 

After two years of being a Christian, I slowly discover the gift that God has given to me, and the reasons why He designed me to be like me - an introvert with sensitive feeling, but love to be the center of attention. 

And because of the Sun Stand Still prayer that I prayed, things that seemed impossible to me started to become possible. I can see God's abundant blessings pouring onto me. Amazing, that feeling is truly amazing at the moment when I witness God's blessing.

Yet, I must remain humble - I am here to serve others, with all that God has given me. Like what others said:" What you have, is a gift from God, what you will become, is a gift for God."

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All photos were taken in Mont Salvat, with Polaroid SLR 690 and Polaroid PX680 color films.

                                                                                                                                    

                                                                                                                                   

The King of Glory

Who brings our chaos back in order

Who makes the orphan a son and daughter

The King of glory

The King above all kings

This is amazing grace

This is unfailing love

That You would take my place

That You would bear my cross

You would lay down your life

That I would be set free

Jesus I sing for

All that you've done for me

26.06.2013

     Both of us were feeling miserable and low energy this morning, uncertain about our career and future. I sat at my desk and look out the window - I saw the most beautiful sunlight that shone through the meadows and trees, and I prayed for heavenly Father to take away all my worries, just take away my earthly worries, Father, I didn't know what to ask for but I know I need you although the circumstances in front of us always seem challenging or hopeless, but Father You have a plan for all of us, and You answer before we even ask.

        An hour of working later I checked my mail box and opening mail box is like opening a Christmas present, I don't know what waits ahead of me but I always hope it's something good that sent from God, such as people request me about my photography service. To my surprise, I got an email from Eswar and Karen who requested me about Wedding Day Photography service. WOHOOOOOOOOOOO! I tried to stay calm and found that the email that sent from Eswar and Karen was the time just after I prayed!!! How amazing is God! Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh praise God! I couldn't stop boasting about what God has done for me again and shared this good news with my housemates and friends from church and also wrote a message to thank Eric Hew for recommending my photography service to Eswar and Karen.

        A week later Eswar and Karen dropped by at our Polaroid gallery and we had a great chat. They are so easy going that I can't be more thankful. Thank you Father so so much for sending me such a beautiful and nice couple. Sometimes I am afraid that some of the potential clients will run away, but it's funny when Eswar told me that he was afraid to me run away.

        I always doubt about myself, I try to use my gift in art to honour God although I wasn't sure how, I try to do everything with mercy and grace, and I try not to care about gaining recognition from men... It is a hard learning process, to learn to not to serve in the spotlight but to serve in the shadow, but I must always remember that God weighs the heart, not the treasure or recognition we gain on earth. 

        Now I understand that when the heart is right, God will continue to be faithful to us, for He wants us to be fruitful. Sometimes it's just about the right timing for the blessing to come, it might seem hopeless now because we are unable see the future, so we are easily condemned by the circumstances which we are facing. If we never taste the bitterness, we will never appreciate the sweetness.  I am learning to be steadfast - no matter how hard life seems to be, I believe that Father will provide. Why worry? Just be patience and wait for His timing, we will certainly witness His glory, because He loves us crazily.

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Flower Bed

I am lying on a flower bed

Surrounded by everything good

Like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, amazing grace

Thank you Ebby for climbing up and down the ladder to shoot this for me.

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This photo was taken last November when I spent my whole Spring time in Malaysia. 

Thank God for blessing me with a few photography jobs, 

that's why I was busy editing photos for my other blog: aweiding.blogspot.com

During the last trip back in Malaysia, I had one side of my hair shaved, dyed my hair into red colour (inspired by the Disney cartoon "BRAVE"), 

spent some quality time with friends and family (although I stayed home most of the time), rescued a kitten who fell in the sewage twice, 

adopted a grey kitten, started to read the New Testament, and attended four weddings and a funeral.

Once I arrived in Kuala Lumpur airport in September, drama has started... Like my close friends always say:" Your life is always dramatic!" Imagine me sharing my stories of 27 years to new friends, they certainly know that one night is never enough for me tell them everything. 

I hope they still remember the way I acted and the way I talked -- entertaining.

But I am skipping telling the dramas this time, it's a brand new year and it's time to thank everyone around me!

Thank you to my parents for always waiting for my return and also providing me with a warm shelter. 

Thank you to my brothers for spending a quality trip with me.

Thank you to all my friends for helping me shoot my portraits, buying me meals when I had no food, bringing me out when I had no transport, being my audience when I was excited to talk and bringing me joy!

Thank you to all my new friends for making me feel that the world is a bed full of flowers.

Thank you to all my clients for believing in my ability.

Thank you to my best friends and my cousin for listening to my testimonies.

Thank you to my boyfriend for always being there on the other side of the hemisphere and supporting me unconditionally. 

Thank you God for healing my dog DingDong from sickness.

Thank you God for granting me a grey kitten who brought me so much precious memories.

Thank you God that all my friends and family members are safe and healthy.

I was planning to write this post during new year time, but times flies too fast, I know. 

It's been three months now but I would still like to write down my new year revolutions, 

it's better late than never. 

I must finish study my bible.

I must write down all my testimonies.

I must read at least two books this year 

( I know I am a slow reader because I imagine too much when I read).

I must paint at least one painting.

I must launch my own photography website.

I must be more and more creative during every photo shoot.

I must control my temper and remind myself not to have negative thoughts. 

I must not be selfish and always save the best for others.

Last but not least I must love myself more and rock my life!

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