Zebra's Shower

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I Exalt Thee

I Exalt Thee

I Exalt Thee

Oh Lord

Shower time is my me time. 

Imaginations are pouring out like water during my shower, and it's also the time when I speak to God and praise God.

There was once in the middle of shower, 

I felt like thanking God for every nature He had created for us. 

But I did not know that while I was thanking him, 

a burglar actually climbed into my housemate's room, 

passed by the toilet and went into my room to took away our coins!

Thank you God for keeping me safe and let the burglar walked passed me.

Imagine what could happened if the burglar came into the toilet?!

Another praise report is that I have granted my Temporary Residence Visa in Australia!

WohooOoOOOoOOoooOOOOOoo! 

I have been waited for fourteen months for the immigration officer to contact me, 

not until my bible study fellows prayed for me a month ago, 

everything just seem to come into place!

Now I am "someone with identity" and I am eligible in applying for a job and a Medicare card!

How great is that!

Our church held a fasting program called Deeper from 30 July to 19 August, 

where the whole church fast and prayed together.

Some were fasting from coffee, soft drink, sweets, social media, television etc, while me and my boyfriend were fasting from meat, watching movie and eating out. 

For the past three weeks I was cooking vegetarian food everyday! 

I felt my body was so energetic and motivated in completing my work! 

When we were craving for meat or eating out, we chose to read his words, 

rather than just follow our own will. 

When we were craving from watching movie, we opened the Bible instead.

In the beginning it wasn't easy, we didn't really eat vegetarian food until the third day of fasting.

But it really made a different when you thought: "Hold on... I actually don't need all these!

I might have made a decision fasting from meat, but the meaning behind the fasting is far more powerful because I am one step closer to Him! "

Being able to control how we deal with circumstances rather than allowing circumstances control us really got us out of our comfort zone and became closer to God!

And my Temporary Residence Visa was granted just right after the Deeper program and fasting!

How great is our God!

Miss Rabbit

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A big big hug to my boyfriend for capturing the best shot of mine.

We were wondering, it would be very awkward if anyone of my neighbours pass by 

the window and saw a huge naked butt by sitting the window... 

Haha! 

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I am in love with European films.

One of the things I do the most since I moved to Melbourne is watching European films. 

Some of the story plots are weird, some are insanely funny, and some are really disturbing. 

90% of the European films that I've watched from television contained nudity.

For the first few months I was having culture shocked and wondered,

why do French love to have nude scenes in their films?

Is this how they celebrate love and sex?

Now I am able to watch the nude scenes with different perspective, 

not with a lusty way, but to appreciate the artistic parts of them.

European films are really entertaining!

Here are some of the films that I like:

 C.R.A.Z.Y. (Canada) - crazy gay plot

Solino (Germany) - nasty brother

Black Ice (Finland) - disturbing

Amreeka (U.S) - love this one!

A Song For Martin  (Sweden) - middle age's romance

 La Vie En Rose (France) - beautifully sad

Gilles's Wife (France) - similar plot to "Black Ice", do not under estimate your wife

Mommo the Bogeyman (Turkey) - one of my favourites

Empties (Czech Republic) - affair happens in all ages

Silent Souls (Russia) - awarded the Golden Osella for best cinematography 

Gainsbourg (France) - the cabbage head is really disturbing me recently...

Father's Chair (Brazil) - beautiful and genuine 

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The Nude Project

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Time to BREAK THROUGH!

On my desk there's a book of <<Desk-Top Mood Maker>>, it says: 

Take a risk! Do something different!

I am been eagerly crying for a break through and then my 27th birthday came... 

What have I done for the past 27 years??? 

The flame inside my heart keep burning and burning everytime when I attend church service, 

I am just desperate so so so desperate for a break through! 

So after my birthday, I told my boyfriend my plan of  nude photography and he shall be the photographer. He is extremely supportive to any of my projects which I can't find that in anyone else. Before the first nude photo shooting session in our house, he murmured:

" Am I ready to let the world see my partner's naked photo?" 

Come on babe, it's just a nude photo! 

We were worrying how my family and friends or those who know me would react to my nude photos. But the reason I want to do this project is to break through myself, 

and everyone else's mindset - this is not a PORNOGRAPHY. 

Growing up in an Asian background, we often get "excited" and over react towards nudity.

On the contrary, nudity is a very common subject in western culture. 

Why can't I do this? 

I am just a normal person who live a normal life
if I care what my friends and family would think of me,.

I am so gonna do this and I don't care what others would comment about my big butt 

and fat cellulite legs, this is me! The real me! 

There is nothing else to be afraid of in this world after doing this project, 

because I need to break through for myself, and not anyone else.

My boyfriend gave me a very good encouragement on my nude project :

And when the eyes of them both were opened, and they knew that they were naked; 

and they sewed fig leaves together, 

made themselves aprons. 

Genesis 3:7

That's the idea. Before Adam and Eve ate the fruit from the tree of knowledge, 

they had no shame for their naked body. 

Sometimes, are our eyes opened too wide to see and accept everything 

that is interpreted by the media? 

Why are we so ashamed of our own body and comparing every part of ourselves with others? 

Why do some people over reacted towards nudity? 

Why do some people interpret nude as the most unacceptable thing in the world?   

After all, nude photography is not as easy as it seems. 

How to show the aesthetic value in my poses when I am not wearing anything? 

How to capture the best angle to bring out my message in each photo?

I am just hoping we can get back to basic - 

on how we see things in the world with no stereotype or judgement.