Creep

When you were here before
Couldn't look into your eyes
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell i'm doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I wish I was special
"Creep" from radiohead


My favourite favourite song, beside Damien Rice's songs.
My buddy once told me he got a song that suited me and he played this "Creep"song for me.
I said Oh My God this was my favourite song! He was a buddy indeed.

This was the hardest shoot I've ever took.
My big stuffed bear was my assistant, as I placed it in the set to set my camera focus point.
Then I have to wrapped myself with bandages.
Oh the bandages cost me a lot...I bought 7 bandages from a pharmacy shop,
I took the all the bandages from the shelf.
I bought a big black cloth from the fabric shop as well, and cost me more!
So I hung the black cloth from my window rail,
ran and knelled at the set after I pressed the timer, and I didn't noticed that after too many runs from the camera, my bandages actually start peeling off...
I had quite some bruises on my knees again after this shot.
I just want to be special.

My Soul

What animal would you like to be?
A butterfly.Pretty.Attractive.Freedom.

Poor and happy, or rich and miserable?
Frankly, I choose to be poor and happy.
What is right or wrong?
Poor = wrong? Rich = right?
Live an ordinary life, graduated from university, find a common job with descent salary, buy a car, buy a house, get married, have children, have grandchildren, retired.. that's all.
Is that the best way of living our lives?
Oh why can't we choose the kind of life we want?
Sure we can! Be brave and strong enough to be different!
Quoted Oprah Winfrey :" YOU HAVE THE POWER!"
Yes we all have the power!

Doesn't matter if I can't do accounting like you do,
Doesn't matter if I can't afford branded goods like you do,
Doesn't matter if you think that I am a dreamer.
It just doesn't matter!
Cause you can't shoot pictures as good as I am,
Cause you can't paint as good as me!
Cause you don't dare to tell people about your dreams!
We are all different! What is wrong with dreams?
If you don't dream, you are dead.
Yes I have dreams, but at least I AM stepping towards my dream by showing you my artworks.
I am not the best, we are not the best.
I never dream of become the best, I just want to do the best with my talent.
Just be gladful there are various type of people in this world live harmonically together.
Or would you rather see only robots with black coat walking on the street?
I live with my dreams, because I know I am different.