My Soul

What animal would you like to be?
A butterfly.Pretty.Attractive.Freedom.

Poor and happy, or rich and miserable?
Frankly, I choose to be poor and happy.
What is right or wrong?
Poor = wrong? Rich = right?
Live an ordinary life, graduated from university, find a common job with descent salary, buy a car, buy a house, get married, have children, have grandchildren, retired.. that's all.
Is that the best way of living our lives?
Oh why can't we choose the kind of life we want?
Sure we can! Be brave and strong enough to be different!
Quoted Oprah Winfrey :" YOU HAVE THE POWER!"
Yes we all have the power!

Doesn't matter if I can't do accounting like you do,
Doesn't matter if I can't afford branded goods like you do,
Doesn't matter if you think that I am a dreamer.
It just doesn't matter!
Cause you can't shoot pictures as good as I am,
Cause you can't paint as good as me!
Cause you don't dare to tell people about your dreams!
We are all different! What is wrong with dreams?
If you don't dream, you are dead.
Yes I have dreams, but at least I AM stepping towards my dream by showing you my artworks.
I am not the best, we are not the best.
I never dream of become the best, I just want to do the best with my talent.
Just be gladful there are various type of people in this world live harmonically together.
Or would you rather see only robots with black coat walking on the street?
I live with my dreams, because I know I am different.

Pressure

This is got to die
This is got to stop
This has got to lie down
It's easier to tease
But you can't paint
Quite as good as me
Cause i am lately lonely
by "Elephant" Damien Rice


13-05-2010
My brother ran away from home.
We were worry, worry and worry.
Didn't know where to find him, didn't know when would he be home.
Peers pressure... That is a fact that every teenager is facing.
Have you ever be the center gossip of your peers or school and you felt so reluctant to go to school,
worst still, you couldn't tell your parents or siblings about the pressure you were facing in school.
I had a hard time in my high school. I have to say, I hate the way my teachers treated me.
Not knowing what I've done wrong, I was black-listed by the teachers just because I dated a senior in my school! Funny... My peers stopped talking to me.
I was diagnosed with anorexia in high school, my weight was merely 42kg.
Ate only 2 scoops of food everyday, no carb no meat no greasy food... my stomach was singing all the time.
I ended up visited the doctor every week due to my gastric.
Well, life goes on.
My brother came home, and turned over a new leaf.
Not bad for me too as I am back to my high school friends and I am blessed the best man in my life after the high school senior dumped me!

Ooh Wee

Fell in love with this song "The Ooh Wee Song" from Jonny Blu.

So I decided I must make a very romantic photography from this song.

Here we are! Spent several days to finish the Pre-Wedding Photography Portfolio.

Yes I was the model plus director plus designer plus make up artist plus editor... Multi-tasking!

Who would ever shoot their wedding photography using a tripod? I did! I believe on the Tripod Power!

I am providing photography services: wedding, birthday party, family portrait etc...

And also selling Polaroid cameras and films!

Please view my online store: http://www.facebook.com/pages/FilmNeverDiecom/153579488033738

It was so cold plus cloudy plus raining everyday...

I had to take out my big jacket for the shots, my body was shivering of the cold wind...cold cold cold...

What annoyed us was the sun set at around 5.30pm, we was always rushing to take the shots.

Thank you for much for our friends who spent time doing the shots with us. 

What a wonderful autumn experience, love is in the air!

Autumn!

Autumn here I come!
Oh this is the very first time I experience the whole yellowing process!
I am more than happy to view the leaves changing color everyday!
I just start staying in Melbourne since February.
Yes Melbourne is famous for it's crazy weather, read the weather forecast everyday before you go out!

Yellow, it's all about yellow!
Some are orange, some are red. Awesome!
I always dream to visit a western country and experience the four seasons.
Well everyone from the tropical country has this kind of dream.

I like the how yellow-orangy leaves fill the ground!
I like to step on the leaves and hear the "crack" sound.
Oh Autumn I love you! You are so romantic!

Bad Hair Day...

Yes, I am having a bad hair day.

Yes, it makes me moody.

It’s a BAD BAD Hair Day…

Specially I am staying in Melbourne now.

The cold and dry weather makes my hair looks like dry grass...

Every morning when I wake up, the thing I hate the most is to fix my hair, imagine there are dog furs and wool stuck in my hair... Sometimes I felt so embarrassed for my boyfriend to watch me in the morning -- lion mane.

Well sure I deserve some critics because I am tight ass enough not to spend money on any good hair serum.

Whatever... This is who I am! This is an artist!

I will never spend so much money on make ups, never.

I am not your Puppet

Please don’t control me,

Please don’t tell me what to do,

Please don’t insult me,

Because I am not your puppet!

This shot was taken on March 2010 at 5am.

The setting was inspired by rosiehardy. 

It took me 3 hours to shoot myself because I had to set the self-timer, ran from the camera and posed, in 10 seconds.

Quite tiring, but it was an achievement -- my very first self portrait! I ended up having bruises all over my knees.
Then I spent 3 hours to edit the shot.

I was so depressed back in that few months-- jobless, hopeless, and sleepless.

Not knowing where to go,

not knowing how to love....


So I jumped out of bed from another sleepless night and start my own self portrait!